At my breaking point...

Exhausted. That's what I am. This home search is more than I bargained for and it is now getting the best of me. I am not sleeping, not feeling well, and mentally drained. I'm over it. I am sorta cranky and am trying my best to not take all my frustration out on Chris. I honestly have to say I am being great at not lasing out, but girls, we know when we are about to hit that point...and I'm about to hit it!
We put another offer in for a house on Saturday and found out yesterday they went with another offer. It is pretty discouraging when you offer over, or at, asking price with you paying all closing costs and associated fees and they go with another offer. It's like a punch in the gut every single time. Four times now, to be exact.
I know I should be thankful for what I do have and even having the opportunity to buy our second home at such a young age is amazing, but it is a draining process...especially in this DFW housing market. We are happy we are moving to a city we want to raise a family in, where Chris's job is, and most of our friends are, but I had no idea it would be this stressful. 
We have to be out of our house March 1st and currently have no place to go. I texted Chris earlier today and told him I am ready to move into an apartment. I am over the search for our 'dream' house only for that dream to be shattered by a bigger and better offer. I am ready to be settled and not have this pit in my stomach any longer. I am ready to call a place home for the next 10 years and not have to worry about moving again in a year. I am ready to not be in bidding wars with people. I am ready to decorate and make it our own. I am ready for this process to be over.
I know we brought all this on ourselves by selling our house, so it is partially our fault, but I just feel the need to vent and get this off my chest. I know God already has our house picked for us. It will be a perfect match; I'm just impatient. 
For another week or so we will give the house search one great effort, but after this weekend I think we will have to make the executive decision to find and apartment. I hate that it has come to that, but if that is what is in the cards, then that is what we have to deal with.
And for those asking, we did meet with a builder, but the community we wanted to build in is full. Just another punch in the gut, but that just means it wasn't meant to be.
So, thank you for following along with Chris and I in this journey to find our second home. Thank you for listening to my rants and telling me it will be okay. And thank you for your sweet comments and prayers. It is truly appreciated. 
Also, thanks to our wonderful real estate agent who is at our beck and call! We couldn't do it without her. She knows how we work and what we want...now we just have to secure a deal!
Happy Tuesday!