Resolution Recap: It is seriously May? And a touchy subject.
Click here if you don't know what my new year's resolution is! It's HUGE!
For real? Where did April go? I feel like I lost a month of my life I will never get back.
Y'all, I only have four pictures of my outfits from the entire month of April. I wasn't naked, just busy. Or maybe I was nakey...just kidding!
Since I bored your with my outfits I wanted to touch on my observations lately pertaining to my resolution.
Being a blogger I see cute clothes I would love to own all day long. I always want a someone's blazer and someone else's wedges, and we can't forget about their purse and jewelry.
What I also find is that maybe, just maybe I want a particular something just because the person who is wearing it is famous, or a "bigger" blogger. Maybe I really don't even consider what they're wearing my style, but because 58,461 people are commenting that it is "the most gorgeous blouse ever!" or "dying to own that!" sometimes I get sucked in to thinking that if I owned that top, people would say that to me.
I guess what I am trying to say is that, through my resolution thus far, God has really shown me to be true to myself. Yes, of course I wantwantwant a lot of things. Does that mean just because I see it on a celebrity or fashion blogger I need to go buy it? No.
I have always been a pretty confident person and I have never let clothes define me. I could have a closet full of designer duds (I don't, by the way) and I can promise you I would wear my Nike running shorts and sleeveless sorority tanks (courtesy of my sis-in-law) all day, everyday if I could. Ask anyone who knows me and they would agree.
I would take new tennis shoes over heels, and a massage or spa day over a new purse. And through this resolution I am realizing that that is who I am. Even though I blog about fashion, I will never wear heels on a daily basis. I will never have the trendiest clothes because, even if I could afford them, that just isn't me. I am a tomboy who loves clothes, but would really rather wear no makeup and play sports all day long.
I don't fault or want to offend anyone who does buy clothes they see on others. That isn't what I am saying.
I am saying that for me personally, I know when I am buying an article of clothing, or buying anything for that matter, I am buying it for me. Because I like it and it is me. I never want to buy something just because I want to be like someone because, no matter if my entire wardrobe is exact to theirs, or I could be mistaken for their twin, inside I am not them. I won't grow 10 inches, my blog won't suddenly gain 1,000 new followers, and I won't have paparazzi living outside my house just because of a few materialistic items. Trying to conform into something your not can be a tricky thing in the blog world and God has really allowed me to stay true to who I am and realized that although I would love Prada bags, perfect hair, and to be 6 ft tall, that isn't me.
If tomorrow I was given everything on my wish list I would give it back. I have thought about this for so long. If tomorrow a Range Rover, Louis Vuitton himself, keys to a 10,000sqft mansion, and an unlimited Nordstrom's gift card showed up on my front doorstep, I would give it away. Why? Because that isn't me. It just isn't me. I never want people to think I am something I am not. I can't afford a Range Rover, so don't give me one. I can't afford new Louie's all the time and don't go anywhere fancy enough to have an assortment of them. I don't like not getting full use out of my clothes, so I don't need more clothes right now. It is just Chris and I and our 2,300sqft home is more than we ever needed.
I am blessed in so many ways, and with the constant materialistic distractions in today's world, I always pray about not getting caught up in items I think I need in order to feel more secure, or more liked.
Thanks for letting me vent. I highly encourage anyone who feels caught up in life, or clothes, or anything for that matter, to stop what you're doing and just think. Pray and try to get back to who you are on the inside.
This challenge has made me more humble and I feel so grateful for all I have been given.
I can't wait to see what the rest of the year has in store, but so far, things are panning out just the way God intended them :)
PS: I am getting new tennis shoes for my graduation from graduate school. My. feet. hurt.