Until I became a mom...
Not that I am not ambitious anymore...
It is just that my little G man made me a pile of mush!
I had until July 8th to decide if I was going to renew my contract for this coming school year. I literally waited until the last minute to decide. At the time of my decision I was in the midst of G's three month sleep regression/growth spurt, breastfeeding at all hours of the day, and running on fumes. I longed for adult interaction and to somewhat feel like myself again. So, I hesitantly signed my contract and came to grips that I'd be teaching another year.
Then, Thursday came....and I cried the entire way to school, at school, in the middle of introducing myself, when I got home, and before I went to bed. I bawled to Chris on the phone that I was DYING INSIDE and that I was for sure not going back after June. #dramacticmuch?
Friday was much better, but I still missed being home with G, watching GMA, playing and napping, going out and about, and snuggling.
Then the weekend gave me the refresh I needed.
Now it is Monday night and I have come to terms with the fact that I will need to just take one day at a time. Am I anxious for June to come? DUH! But I know that I became a teacher for a reason. I teach my demographic for a reason. My school babies need lovin' and I know that G is getting more than they will ever experience.
I know God put me in this position for a reason and I'll be a better mom and wife for it, but I sure so miss my G baby during the day!!
So, as I still transition into this whole working mom role, please pray for me and this upcoming school year. I am more than thankful to have stayed home with Graham for four months and now it is time that I share some love with my cherubs at school!
Have a great Tuesday!